Today I reflect back and wonder how different today might have been had the precious little baby I was carrying would have been born and what he/ she would have looked like on his/her 4th birthday. Unfortunately that little life was not meant to be here on earth. My precious baby left us on Oct 4th 2004, but today would have been the expected due date...May 20th. It's one of those days that I anticipate every year with a sadness. Instead of having a birthday to celebrate, I have a day to reflect. This time 4 yrs ago me and my husband planted a beautiful maple tree outside of our bedroom window, each year I have watched it grow, I have noticed a robin or two use it to build a nest and lay eggs, I have watched the beautiful flame red and salmon colored leaves in the autumn fall to the ground...that tree may not represent much to the common passer by in the neighborhood, but to me, it means a lot. I know one day I will be able to see and hold that little baby in Heaven, but for now, I have a tree to nuture and watch grow.
God did bless me with two more beautiful, vibrant and healthy children and for that I am thankful. But for now I just want to say Happy Birthday my Angel!
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